Note: In the 13 years KaBooM has nurtured writers, some of our members have taken leaves of absence. Normandi Ellis is one such member, recently returned and contributing again. Today she posts from Gail’s account.
I had an A-ha moment in the Louisville Barnes and Noble Bookstore one morning last week. I had gone to Office Depot to print out some copies of a manuscript I am working on. That process was going to take a little while, so I popped over to the bookstore.
I’d never been to this particular store and so everything was a bit turned around. I walked in circles, got lost in the cookbooks and travel books. I went through the aisles looking at this and that, stopping to pick up a cover that intrigued me. Then I’d move on. A nice young clerk came up to me at one point and asked me if he could help me find something.
I said “No, but thank you.” I merrily went on my way looking around, walking through a maze of shelves, lost but happy.
After about 30 minutes I walked up to the counter with a magazine, Isabel Allende’s memoir (My Invented Country), a book of W.S. Merwin poems (The Shadow of Sirius) and a Ted Andrews book I’d never read before. The clerk asked me if I had found everything I’d been looking for. “No,” I said, “but it didn’t matter.”
“Well, I could have helped you find it and saved you some time,” he said. I laughed, saying “Well what would be the point in that? How would I ever have found these books if I knew what I was looking for?!”
I think that is also true about writing. I sit down thinking I know what I’m looking for, but then suddenly something else grabs my attention as I write and I find myself off on a tangent. Sometimes I have to go back and start over, but most of the time I find that being willing to be a little bit lost in the process allows the writing to pleasantly surprise me. The discoveries then, the synchronicities, and the recurring symbols that I hadn’t seen the first time, become a beacon for the writing rather than my imposing a form on it and strangling it into submission.
There are many books on the flow experience including the work of Julia Cameron and Natalie Goldberg. I like Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi’s book Creativity: Flow and the Psychology of Discovery and Invention and John Briggs’s work Fire in the Crucible as inspirational texts on the writing process.
I hope you find time to follow your nose and keep writing even though you don’t know where you are going. I think I could adapt a poem by David Wagoner called “Lost”. He suggests that when lost, one must “Stand still. The forest knows/Where you are. You must let it find you.”
Stand still. Let the words find you.











